I have a whole heap of short poems backed up in my Google Drive, mostly inspired by my boyfriend after we met in August 2022. Starting with this one, it was during a realisation that this budding relationship felt…different. After a long period of dating post-bad break-up, I was consistently getting my hopes up just for them to be dashed. It was a fun cycle. But this time, it was slow, it was safe, and it inspired me.
26th September, 2022
I feel so happy, like lazy happy.
Not the type of all-consuming, obsessive high-chasing happy.
But the secure, comfortable, dream-like happy where you’re free from the anxiety that it might be taken away at any moment.
I’ve never felt this type of happy before.
Happy, dreamy, lazy.
Looking into his eyes with droopy eyelids of my own and a soft smile on my face always.
I think this is the thing I’ve been hoping for.